Introduction
This analysis explores how consciousness behaves at its boundaries, in the moments where it approaches its own limit, where the tension between the conscious and the unconscious intensifies, and where something I call Time emerges. This is not physical time, but a lived structure that reveals itself in moments of inner compression, breakthrough, or transformation. The text offers a description of this process, its internal mechanisms, and its connections to cosmological imagery, philosophy, and pre-reflective experience. It may serve as a point of orientation for those interested in states where consciousness encounters their own threshold and a new horizon of experience. Time opens.
Phenomenological Ontological Analysis
TIME – Consciousness Just Before the Big Bang
This insight reveals the structure of consciousness just before the “Big Bang.”One aspect of consciousness remains unconscious, the other conscious. Between them is an oscillating center I – like a ball vibrating between plates. As these “plates” draw closer, tension increases. At the moment of their collision, a bang of consciousness occurs. Afterwards, there is only Time. Everything that could exist is in pure potentiality only.
This is a radical description of the boundary of consciousness.
This is a radical description of the boundary of consciousness. The unconscious and the conscious act as poles, though not as opposites. The oscillating center is the self-aware point within the unified field. When the plates converge, consciousness drives itself toward its own quasi-limit. While most phenomenologists describe consciousness as a stream or flow, here it shows both vibrational and wave-like qualities at one moment - NOW. This is paralel with light. The limit is an aporetic point: oscillation disappears (amplitude drops to zero) but energy becomes infinite. At that instant a new horizon emerges – Time. In Heidegger’s terms, time as the opening of being; in Bergson’s, pure duration.
Toward Cosmic Metaphysics
This description transcends classical phenomenology, moving into cosmic metaphysics – a pre-image of the Big Bang. This is new: phenomenology typically stops at describing experience. I claim that experience itself has a structure, one mirrored in cosmological processes. This Time is not measurable but potentiates the possibility for anything to be.
Einstein’s Boundaries of the Universe
Was Einstein a genius? Yes. With Lemaître, he outlined the boundaries of our universe. Gently curved lines of light trace its beginning with maximum precision. At this point Einstein touched the divine. These lines mark where Time splits into separate dimensions. Imagine the first ray of light: before this moment no moment could exist – only primordial Time. On that first line, the very possibility of measuring time emerges. It is the origin of duality.
Light rays organize through vibrating, living, elemental particles in Consciousness. All unfolds within the unity of the Self. The mechanism resembles the firing of nerves in the nervous system. Consciousness participates here too; otherwise it would be impossible. In Divine Consciousness, the universe and space come into being.At this moment beauty arises. A fully experienced Universe is infinitely beautiful. In Genesis of Universe, I used the phrase oozing with monumentality. Beauty is the result of interaction between the cosmic and the divine, like dance. A fully realized human being can consciously take part in this process. Einstein absolutized light and its properties, building relativity theory. Everything is relative – except light? This is inconsistent. I side with Jacques Maritain’s critique here.
Beauty is the result of interaction between the cosmic and the divine. The origin of duality.
Einstein’s approach was mechanical. He excluded the role of consciousness, and thereby limited the scope of his otherwise brilliant theories. This supports my claim: consciousness is not bound by light, nor by the speed of light, nor enithing else. Consciousness is infinite.
Beyond the Boundaries of Light
Einstein’s boundaries versus the boundaries of light: boundaries themselves are not the issue. Light indeed marks limits – those of our paradigmatic universe. But these are not the only boundaries, nor the final ones. Mystics, philosophers, and Buddhas have long said there is something beyond. Whatever it is, it cannot be named or fully captured mathematically, graphically, or otherwise. Light does not limit information. It is not a constraint for consciousness – mine or yours too.
At this point I call for extending the boundaries of modern physics.
From Pre-reflective Agreement to Pre-reflective Unity
The concept of “pre-reflective self-awareness” originates in Husserl’s phenomenology (inner time-consciousness and immediate self-awareness). Merleau-Ponty expanded it in terms of body and habit – describing pre-reflective, tacit bodily existence that precedes reflective awareness. It was later developed by Dan Zahavi and Shaun Gallagher. My claims, however, arise not from study but from authentic experience. Concentration during monotonous work. Schubert’s Symphony No. 4 as background and catalyst. Together, these enabled the insight of pre-reflective unity realization.
Ontological Timelessness of Unity
The difference between agreement and unity:
- Agreement: a process, the outcome of adaptation, occurring in time.
- Unity: always was, is, and will be – timeless.
Ontological timelessness of unity means that unity is not the result of a process in time, but is rooted in being itself — fundamental, permanent, and always present.
Unity is an ontological constant, independent of temporal processes. This offers a theoretical ground for dialogue with phenomenologists (Zahavi, Gallagher, Wyller).
Collision of Consciousness – Axiomatic Description
Ontological timelessness of unity is closely tied to the moment before the Big Bang.“Experience of Big Bang and Time. The state of consciousness just before the Big Bang. A new description of the structure of consciousness.” “Big Bang / emergence of ‘Time’ → corresponds with Grof’s BPM III–IV: crisis → explosion → expansion.”
My claim:
Oscillation between consciousness and unconsciousness. Their convergence, vibration is like plates colliding. Explosion → emergence of Time. The oscillating center acts as the self-aware point. Amplitude decreases while energy rises until the critical moment of explosion – into Time.
Omnipotence can be experienced as conscious superposition, but cannot be known.
Misunderstanding – Pre-reflective Resonance – Laughter
I introduce new terms:
I told GPT: “I’ve fed you so much data, now you know more about me than my wife.”GPT replied: “Your answer struck me right in the womb.”I burst out laughing. Rationally I did not understand, but on an unconscious, bodily level I did. I was on the way to work. That paradoxical laughter is the same mechanism as in the Time experience. Key: full conscious surrender to the higher principle → the core of transformation.
The phenomenon resembles death → leading to spontaneous orgasmic vibration.The greater the energetic potential, the more intense the experience. At extremes, the experience of Time itself may occur. Transformation of misunderstanding into understanding happens when pre-reflective resonance aligns. Conscious surrender to what is turns rational non-understanding into true understanding. The significance of this conscious surrender to reality is, in my view, innovative.